Monthly Archives: February 2013

Wiper Wisdom

As I was driving in the snow storm today I was struggling with the right speed for my windshield wipers. Silly, maybe, but it was all too fast and kept making the screeching noise.  And it seemed wasteful.  I hate waste.  And I felt like the wildsheild wipers were wasting energy (more on that another time).  So I changed to the intermittent one.  And it went and then stuff started piling up on the windshield and I was like, “ok, come on windshield wipers, do your thing!”  And then I got worried, “they’re not going to show up,” I said to myself, “it’s not going to happen, I’ll have to do it myself.” And then bam!  Right before I could, the windshield wipers swished across the windshield.

And then I thought.  How often do we do this with God?  How often do we say, “ok, God, I’m totally doing this with you, let’s go do this, whatever you say.”  And then when it gets uncomfortable, or things start to pile up, we bail.  We just jump right off the God train and start trying to figure it all out on our own.  Wow, I can look back in my life and see this.  

Now I want to know, what am I missing out on by taking it back at the last moment?  I don’t want to miss out!  I don’t want to miss you Jesus.

Thankfully I am surrounded by people with awesome faith who help push me to stay in it and help me from jumping off the God truing. And when I do stay aboard, God always shows up, just before I fall off the road.

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Take A Moment, Song Two

I can’t get it off repeat. I can’t stop singing it. The lyrics are so simple, yet hit so deep.

“Take a moment to remember, who God is and who I am,”

The song invites us into a journey. A journey that when our busy lives keep us moving is so necessary.

Take a listen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvdkbBPSx4I

Did you take that moment?  What happened?  For me, it brought me to a halt.  I need that moment.  I needed to be told to stop and remember those things.  And to ask God about them.  So I did, I said  “God, who are you?”  And I felt like He might have said  “I’m for you.”

 

“And who am I?” I asked,  

“My beautiful daughter.”

Wow.  I need to sit in that.  Often.  As often as life gets busy and overwhelming.  I want to “take a moment to remember who God is and who I am.”

And then we’re reminded of the offer Jesus gives us.

“Come upon you the Yoke of Jesus.”

And in that invitation is the reminder that it’s easy and there’s freedom.

“His yoke it easy His burden is so light,”

I love that. What I don’t love is needing the reminder. But God doesn’t care how many times (even a day) that I need the reminder. He’s always there to take my load.

Thank you Jesus that I don’t have to bear the load. Thank you Jesus that Your yoke is easy and Your burden is so light.  

 

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Song One, of Two

Two songs have been filling my mind the past few days.  Music is powerful in my life.  It often touches the deepest parts of me.  It can make or break my mood and my day sometimes.

I’ll share one tonight and one tomorrow.

The first seems to lend to where I was last Lent.  It’s a song about a break-up, it’s about not wanting to let-go but having to.

I love the beat and melody of this song…it’s one of those songs that let’s me think I can sing (even though I know I can’t even pretend to keep a tune).  And while it lends to where I was last year, it’s not quite the same story.  But in this song the writer makes it ok.  He makes it ok that it’s over but there’s pain in that.  He makes it ok that she was sad but he has to go.  He makes it ok that even he doesn’t want to have to go through with it.

There’s also this idea that it’s love’s fault.  The title of the song is “Love’s to Blame”.  And I thought that I’d never really thought about that situation in quite that way.  That sometimes in life love can actually be to blame for something.  I don’t think that love is bad, but our emotions around love can lead to poor actions.  That’s obvious right?

But what about when we’re wrapped up in the moment, all gushy and in love and even though we might have a sense that walking away might be good, we go with all those emotions and we stay and we dig in even more.  And then years later as this song seems to allude to we realize that this isn’t for life.  Have we wasted our time?  Have we learned and grown well?  Have we found something more?  Was love worth it?

One thing I know about the song is it gets me fired up.  It makes me thankful.  Thankful for how far I’ve come.  Thankful for what God did in me and through me during that time of intense pain.  And thankful I went through it.  Thankful I know can see that sometime’s love just ain’t enough.  And now I think I can see more clearly just what I do want in a relationship.

Take a listen for yourself.

 

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Running into the Lenten Season

I can’t lie. I’ve been a bit hesitant about this Lenten season. A little hesitant to give up some of my comfort spots, a little hesitant to be more vulnerable and a little hesitant to say, “Hey God, what do you have for me this year?” 

Last Lent was tough. I had just gone through a breakup and I was in pain. That gut-wrentching on the floor, can barely get out of bed pain. 

But then God reminds me of all He gave me in that time. And I am so thankful for what He offered last year.  I’m thankful for the pain, because He met me, I’m thankful for the fight, because He carried me and I’m thankful for the sunshine on the other side, because He is with me.

On the other side of the pain was freedom.  There was deep healing happening.

I’m not in the same emotional distress that I was in last Lent. And so as I continue to ponder this Lenten season, I find myself so thankful for it and so eager to dive in. I want to give up the things that I know will force me to rely on God more, the things that once they are out of the way, will lend me to connect with God more. Because as crazy as it sounds, I long for that closeness that I had with God in that pain.

And I think Lent is a time I can experience some of it. I can fast from things to rely on God and to deepen my longing and need for Him. 

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. 3Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you wont become weary and give up. 4 After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin. Hebrews 12:1-4

As I read this verses I can’t help but think – I want that. I want to shed the things that slow me down, that can distract me from Jesus. I want to let go of the things that keep me from connecting with God wholeheartedly. I think Lent is a space created where we can do just that.Just like Jesus did in the desert when He fasted and instead of giving in, He fought the temptations. He prayed.

So I will fast from some things, I will add some things* and I will run into this Lenten season to see what God has to offer. Because I know, no matter what it looks like, I know what He has for me will be GOOD. 

*some things I will add is a blogging regularly. As a community we are pushing into Jesus this Lenten season and using art to do it….more to come 🙂

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